Chris J Powell

Grounded, but Still Lost

Grounded, but Still Lost

I have been thinking long and hard about what this particular site will be as I move forward in my digital life and I have opened this post page at least a dozen times without being able to even begin to type anything.  The words just wouldn’t come.  I have this sense that my life is in this constant state of flux right now and while I am able to put focus towards most aspects of my existence I find myself struggling to make any real attempt at building out the new version of this site, its purpose and its future. I feel myself at times spinning out of control when it comes to organizing my thoughts so that I can really put some effort into building this out. I know that I should dive back in and reconnect the images and content and do a massive clean up of broken links to restore this site to its former glory. It needs a redesign too so maybe it is just the amount of effort that it will take to reconstruct … Read more

Long Goodbyes…Farewell Mother

Long Goodbyes…Farewell Mother

This will be my second official attempt at putting my thoughts about my mother onto the screen for the world to see.  The first attempt at this was done just 2 weeks after her passing on November 1, 2016 but because of some technical issues with my web host, I lost much of the work that I had put in to this site in 2016. I have restored the files as best I can and I I think back to the 2 1/2 months that I have had to live my life without the woman who was so key in making me what I am today (both good and bad) I have a vastly different perspective on her life. You see, my mother was a very strong woman, she gave birth to 5 boys and raised us while working full time and in our teenage years started her own business at a time when it was almost unheard of for a woman to be in business alone.  We all worked for her at Powell Printing over the years and I … Read more

Against All Odds…BE A DAD

Against All Odds…BE A DAD

There are many things in life that make us wonder what the next step is.  I have taken on many new and unforeseen responsibilities in the past year and while many of these things make me scratch my head and wonder if it is all worth it, at the end of the day I have no doubt that it is. For any Father, Dad or Male Role Model out there, if you are going to step up to impregnate, act as a father or be a dad…this job is for life!!! REALIZE THAT AND DON’T DO IT IF YOU CAN’T MAN UP!!! I find myself faced with the challenge of being a Father and a Dad to my own child but through the blessing of finding my one true love after 44 years, I have inherited two other children whose own fathers/dads have seen fit to decide that the job was either too difficult or not worth the reward! Well I call BULL SHIT on that one. If any male is man enough to impregnate a woman…than they should be … Read more

A Broken Heart…Not Easily Mended

A Broken Heart…Not Easily Mended

Loss is something that hits all many times in our lives.  That loss can come from relationship breakdowns, separation from family, financial ruin or the unplanned career changes.  The worst and personally most difficult to deal with is the loss of a family member. I have had experience with this type of loss in the past.  It has not been easy…it has been painful. The hardest to deal with though is when it is not a member of your direct family…but when someone you love deeply looses someone, I find it doubly difficult to adapt, cope and deal with all the emotions and turmoil. Most recently, a great man left us.  He had many challenges that in his 7 decades of life he was not able to fully overcome.  His actions always spoke volumes for the man he was though and even though part of the legacy that he will leave is memories and challenges, he will be deeply missed. This great man, while not related to me by blood or by marriage (just 29 days until I could call … Read more

Wedding Bells are Sounding

Wedding Bells are Sounding

This week has been a bit of a wild ride for me.  Both my full time job and my fledgling part time business are really starting to take off and my focus has been on further developing the skills I need to succeed at both endeavours.  The reality is that much of my waking day is spent learning, developing and implementing technology improvements and design elements into the things that I do. To top things off, this week I crossed a bridge that I really didn’t think would happen…less than 50 days until I get married to the most amazing woman I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. We will be transforming our back yard into an “eat, drink and be married” theme that really focuses on the blending of our two families.  With a small guest list of just over 50, the stress and anxiety from planning this has weighed heavily on both my fiance and myself but we seem to be adjusting well to this new reality. Stay tuned as a new website will be going up … Read more

So I am 44, Now What

So I am 44, Now What

Every year around this time (ie yesterday), I turn a year older and this causes me to sit back and look to the previous year and contemplate what I have done, what I am doing and what I will do. Last year I looked at the number 43 (post has gone missing), and what that means to me, but just after that post an amazing thing happened…life has a funny way of giving you exactly what you don’t know you are looking for.  I met a wonderful, understanding life partner who has brought great joy and happiness over the past year. As I celebrated the completion of 43 years on this rock and enter into my 44th year with something truly amazing to look forward to. I now have an amazingly complex newly extended family, my daughter now lives with me full time and wedding bells will soon be heard throughout the land as I commit myself to the most wonderful woman I have ever met. As I sit back and reflect on the passage of time I see that … Read more

Happy Birthday to Krispy's Rants/i am krispy

Happy Birthday to Krispy's Rants/i am krispy

Four years ago this week I ventured forth and started to put the thoughts, rants and meanderings out there for the world to see.  4 years ago I really didn’t think that anyone at any point would give this attempt at connecting a second glance but through the process I have seen this site flourish and at times become a realization of a dream of mine. Writing is not something that comes easy, nor does the discipline of committing the time to doing it right.  The past few months have been a challenge for me both physically and emotionally and my commitment as Wordsmith has waned somewhat. The four years of being a blogger have seen me experiment with different platforms (the first posts were done at Google’s Blogger.com site) but then I found WordPress and even though I have on a few occasions left the comfort of it, I have always returned. Looking at the numbers behind the site itself, I have accomplished quite a bit over the four years that I have been committed to building the Krispy … Read more

Preparing for a Fresh Start

Preparing for a Fresh Start

As I sit here this morning, enjoying another cup of coffee and reflect back on what I have done with my life in the past 42 years I really don’t have many regrets, although the ones that I do have are pretty big.  My life path has changed a few times over those years but I am, for the most part happy with where I sit today. Later this morning I head off on an interview.  I don’t know much about the company or its product and I know that the job itself will be relatively hum drum but considering the health issues that I have been battling with, right now a pay check is what I need, not a life changing career that will have be being an international globe trotting superstar. In the past, I have worked really hard to be the best in what ever profession I was in that itself has caused me a lot of stress and had me setting expectations upon myself that were not only difficult to live up to, but also set … Read more

Depression and Anxiety Mixed with Pain

Depression and Anxiety Mixed with Pain

It has been a rough ride for me for the past several months.  From a 4 month head ache, to an abscessed tooth to a flare up of my Psoriasis I have been left with an immutable amount of confusion and frustration over the current state of my life.  All of this combined with a job that saw me making less and less despite doing and accomplishing more and more, the rabbit hole that is my Anxiety came full force and drove me deep into the underground that I sometimes find myself in. It was my personal battle with Anxiety that has had me in and out of jobs and unfortunately there does not seem to be a real solution to “getting better”, and when you mix in the amount of real pain that I am in EVERY DAY it leaves me wondering what good am I doing for anyone. Then I take a step back and realize that I am not the only one going through these challenges, and I am definitely not the worst off out there, but … Read more

Happy New Year – Krispy Style

Happy New Year – Krispy Style

I have been giving a lot of thought to what I have been and have not been doing over the past year and I realized that while life has been a challenge, I not only need to evaluate my health but I need to focus on being a generally better person.  When it comes to what I will do with my online time, it will be far more focused than it has been in the past.  I think back to the original iteration of this Blog and remember when I did not miss a day for an entire year.  It was my cathartic outlet…but I have left that behind for some reason so on this the first day of 2015, I make a commitment to myself to make Krispy’s Bytes better by applying the focus and determination that I had when I used it as a Sales Tool in the past. The Tech that I love so much continues to march forward at an alarmingly fast rate and I want to be a part of that, even if my finances … Read more

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